Poem #2: Happy With Me

Because...
Because I left too soon
Because I lived my life below the moon
Because I gave the wrong answer
Because I thought I could go just a little bit faster
Because I turned my back on the wrong crowd
Because I should have said that aloud
Because I gave you every reason
Because I was born in the busiest season

Because I started off in a baron location
Because I wore that outfit to your celebration
Because I decided to live, half an hour too late
Because I confessed my love on our very first date
Because it made me feel so in control
Because I never had the nerve to let go
Because I'm half the woman I could've been
Because I'm twice the man you'll ever be

Because I negotiated gravity with JD in my hand
Because puking in your handbag was actually planned
Because I loved you wrecklessly
Because I never wanted you physically
Because I thought you'd understand
Because this thing of ours was always damned
Because I'm still so far from perfect
Because someday I might be worth it
Because I was always first to come
Because I like to leave so much undone

Because this life could be a thing of beauty
Because I'll never know what could be
Because theres so much work to be done
Because by now you should see
Because I'll never be happy with you, until I'm happy with me

BB

Poem #1: Boy in the Window

To stand displayed, decorated and dejected.
I am hard; you cannot touch me through this window, my home.
I will not be pierced, I will not be bruised.
I will someday float quite happily in dreams and water.
I need not swim, I don't want your attention.
If you stare, then that is what you do.
I prefer to stand.

My attire is always top of the range.
My hair and nails, just as they should be.
Never more, never less.
From this window, I see your skin,
always changing, outside this window.
I see you feel and I know I'm not like you.

BB

Shades of...

Ok, so I actually have nothing to say right now, things are going well and as is always the case, this leaves me with little to think about, or blog as the case may be.

I'm back to where I can see her at least weekly, we had a video shoot the other day, was like we'd never been apart. I'll include a picture of that for you readers, whomever you may be.

I have a job, which I like, which has baffled scores of those who know me.

I'm going to try and help two friends have a baby of their own.

I'm going to continue acting regardless of a failed audition at the RSAMD but, also start writing up a manuscript, it won't be finished for a number of years but theres ground work to be done and I can top it up as I live.
So, I'm fine.

The reason for an entry is that one has been requested (which made me very happy) so who am I to refuse. But as I say, nothing to write about really. So this entry is likely the first in a series, I'm going to post lyrics and poems I've written. Any feedback is very welcome, even critical. There is a distance between me and my poems so I'll start with one of those and hopefully get to the lyrics later on. The full volume of work is called "Shades of Red", a title I came up with when I was about 15 and have never had the inclination to change

Hope this counts as some form of blogging and as I say, please let me know what you think.

Blessed Be

BB